What I'm currently doing with my life

I'm currently working at a snails pace on a book potentially Titled: This is The AFtermath Isn't It or Titled: Fate of The Boogey Man From Gargoyles, Taz and Batman to an Ample Search for Truth in Plato's Cave. It is a musing / analysys as a human rights victim in the United States without any security clearence. It is topically concerned with Technology in Society, Political Surveilance and Psychological Operations. When I finish this or while I finish it I am reading some books and trying to stay healthy. I'm trying to lose weight. I've lost 15 lbs. I want to work again, but everytime I work I'm subjected to reality show nazi plot drivers and pscyhological operations that attempt to drive me insane. I'm not very skilled or marketable at this point my brute strength is waning as I age into 38 so general labor jobs might not go for me. I'd like to be selective at where I work or who I work for. My last job maybe funneled me into a weapons test program tried to drive me insane. Im not very confident these days looking. LIke I can't honestly tell someone to hire me over others. I typically have a good attitude, but I also am jaded and well basically i feel like we are a cold fascist society. I am taking a trip to Scotland probably in spring and after that I will be more likely to be finished with my book and want to work. I am enjoying time with my family and little things. We get to take some trips here and there which is a definite plus. When I do return to work I have certain jobs if I could choose like working for Museums, Journalist orgs, Environmental orgs, Homeless out reach orgs, or Pastry shops. I'll probably be unqualified or think these orgs are not looking for a person like me so I will apply to preferabley a Market or Department Store. There are customer service or call centers that might hire me and I may be capable to do that kind of job as well. I don't want to commute to LA but that is where all the good jobs are. I've nearly died on the freeway 3 different times. Once was an attack or rather a poltical assassination attempt. Also it isn't healthy to commute for hours on the freeway and then work 8 hours. There's no time to tend to your health. I also have however bad this brain damage is and social anxiety due to the weapons experiments.