My assessment of my writing:

I'm not a good writer. I have a unique ability to think through things because I have a slow brain processor so my thoughts have uniqueness to them. I feel comfortable sharing them because I think there's niche avenue for receptive readers. Also, I'm being experimented on with mind reading making me desire to document my ordered thought processes and complete them in desired form instead of having them mined for their brokenness in my head.

My political beliefs aren't that complicated.

 My political beliefs aren't that complicated. I believe all deserve basic necessities of life like quality food, clean water, medical care, time off, quality housing, transportation, employment and basic income particularly for disabled and that able minded and bodied people deserve a gauruntee job. Everyone deserves a safe environment and climate control indoor environment in harsh climates.  I think that people should be allowed and incentivized to accumulate wealth by doing extra work or owning things. I think this is possible. I recognize the truth inherent in Anarchy, but submit to hierarchical rule because it is the dominant culture of earth and would sprout up no matter what so democracy regulating this activity is best we have at this point. I also think that, due to hierachical historical rule, that people aren't ready for anarchy. I have a preference for equality but recognize again that not everybody will believe this so i am for happy medium in which the social good is considered in economics and that an economy is supposed to meet everyone's needs. I also believe that we need to create civilization within bounds of sustainable earth. I suspect technology in breakaway civ is possibly hiding these things from us all.

TV series i like

 Lost was my favorite tv show ever. Wish it would have gone on longer. Curb your enthusiasm is also right there for me. Followed by marvel series. I like science fiction and comedy. I also like Ancient Aliens series on history channel and Deep Space and Ancient Civilizations on Gaia. I briefly started Men in Kilts recently and it was enjoyable.

"Why don't the Syrian refugees go back to their home?"

\Someone asked the question and gave the answer which was

"Why don't the Syrian refugees go back to their home? Because there is no home to go back to." America began a military adventure with militant groups, some argue terrorist groups, to overthrow the Syrian government. The argument that allowing refugees will increase terrorism ignores that if you abandon militant groups after hundreds of thousands of deaths and destruction, they might seek retribution against you. This is, allegedly, what happened with Osama Bin Laden, but then again I don't trust that story because how did he evade capture or killing when the whole planet is blanketed with satellites and supercomputers monitoring everybody? But nonetheless, you can't enter into that type of political arrangement with people and then just desert. #Allepobeforeandafter

Propaganda or personal experience or a little of both

 I don't know about propaganda in America. I grew up in a conservative suberb of  LA that was largely white when I was a kid. (It's changed over time and is more diverse). Yet I was convinced that black people were more fun and moral. I felt I related more to latino children culturally but this could have been a class thing because i got along with white children or related to some also. I think that I watched PBS alot and liberal news that conditioned me this way. Still I was pretty aloof as a child. Alot of these thoughts i had as a young person could have been because I was catholic and went to a Catholic school. Looking back, it was a bit more diverse than the whole of the valley. 

So, perhaps this was personal experience and some of it was propagnada. I cant figure it out. Now i pretty much know that all people have similar morality and are fun, but that there is definitely a class war which has casualties on both sides and white supremacy order at the historical heart of American Empire that incorporates diversity still to the project of what it sees as civilizational evolution.

Slower Tracks in School

 Taking Scalia concept outside racial context, when I was in school I could have actually used a slower track. It doesn't mean I'm necessarily less intelligent. I process at a slower rate, it's particular. The Supreme court proceedings from 2015 have me think that. I'm taking the concept outside its racial connotations, as it's being discussed at the supreme court. I don't think affirmative action is in response to slower process for African Americans.

Franz Joseph Kallman and Modern Knowledge

 Modern Knowledge: Franz Josef Kallmann worked at the T4 in Germany which put to death 200,000 institutionalized psychiatric patients. He was protégé of Ernst Rudin and became a founder of The American Society of Human Genetics and would become Chief of Psychiatric Research in Medical Genetics at the New York State Psychiatric Institute. He would also become president of American Psychopathological Association...He published books pushing the claim that 'schizophrenia' was a disease and that it was genetically based... "like many researchers who fled Germany, even Jews, Kallmann did not disapprove of Nazi eugenic politics. In fact, he demanded an even more radical sterilization policy than the Nazis." So the next place for your mind to go is to understand that this more "radical sterilization policy" belief propelled Kallman to the tops of many American organizations. Franz Josef Kallmann (whonamedit.com)

Thoughts on Brain Wars chapter in Pentagon's brain

 In Pentagons Brain by Annie Jacobsen, she discusses Allen Macy Dulles, son of former CIA director Allen Welsh Dulles. Allen Macy Dulles suffered a traumatic brain injury during the Korean War and can only remember technology previous to 1952. This is basically how people treat schizophrenia. They ignore technological developments in the public domain over the past 100 years. In the Chapter titled Brain Wars, which is where Jacobsen interviews Allen Macy Dulles, she discusses how DARPA ostensibly is trying to find ways to deal with Mental Illness and traumatic brain injuries for soldiers, but that, typically, DARPA has other non stated objectives when they develop various technologies. I thought it was kind of a non stated implication or nudge for Jacobsen to include her description of Dulles as not remembering anything beyond 1952 technology while discussing Mental illness in adjacent commentary in the chapter. Kind of like she was laying out the method or modus operandi for the system or psychiatry and society at large.

Questions of Dating between Atheist and Religious or theists.

 I'm not really a true atheist in the sense that I think it's possible there is a creative being that wanted to be worshipped but I think they are probably a psychopath and I wouldn't worship them as a god. But maybe I would date a religious person so long as they were ok with me discussing my thoughts and having my own belief and ideas then sure. My mom is religious and we are pretty amicable.

I don't disvalue all of religion but I just view it from a critical lense I think humans can be conditioned without religion and can contain innate morality. 

Current prospets with my disability

 Right now my voice hearing picks up when I eat too much or when it nears the 3 month cycle for my shot as I take Invega Sustena. This is a racketeering effort to poison me or drug me, but for some reason or other this satisfies them. I am disabled for about two weeks every three months and intermittently as I eat too much. In fact,  the people running my program create severe consequences for gaining weight. So I also have the functional disability of traversing social aspect of work. As I am subject to Nazi secret shopper or psychological operations to drive me crazy. 

So, while in a regular functional society, I would be able to be trained at a job and function with a positive attitude, I am for now faced with the fact that I am functionally disabled by organized groups trying to drive me insane from time to time with voice hearing, body mutilation and I actually function physically slower now because of brain damage. A doctor told me I have the brain of an 80 year old in sections of my brain. That was about 7 years ago. 

Some thoughts while reading David R. Rodediger's book Working Toward Whiteness

 I'm currently reading a book titled Working Toward Whiteness by David R. Roediger. The crux of the book is about exploring accounts and history in which European immigrants recount exploring race relations as considered both white and nonwhite by various sections of American society. The beginning discusses how hungarians, greeks slavs, polish people and Italians as some examples would often be housed with black people or Asian people and from time to time created alliances in the early part of the 20th century and late 19th century. At some point these people would be played against black or Asian people and dangled the carot of whiteness. At the point I'm at in the book it discusses theories of "White on Arrival" and how Europeans had their own views about race before coming to the United States. In discussing Sicilians Roediger writes about how Sicilians were close to Africa and had a history of interacting with Africans, so in some instances accounts describe them as not being racist when coming over. Some Sicilians actually prayed to black saints being Catholic and Italy have history with Africa. Still Italy was becoming an Imperial power in the late 1800s and then became fascist after a fascist movement. This made me recall stories of my Grandpa who was a Sicilian immigrant to the United States. He left in 1930 and didn't have entirely bad things to say about Mussolini. According to my dad's memory anyways he recalled that Mussolini was responsible for feeding poor people in Sicily when previously they had starved. At least for a time. I think it was a bit more detailed about his total thoughts about politics. Appearently he used to sleep with a gun under his pillow and would talk about freedom before he left. I was 4 years old when he died so I only know what gets passed down in stories. From what I know my grandpa spoke broken english and was not racist when he was in America raising my dad. I just know stories about them in Hollywood. My dad is basically a socialist in the sense that he supports Bernie. But I don't want to label him. So in fact my grandpa didn't pass any Mussolini loving to my dad and I probably wouldn't describe affirmitive positions regarding Mussolini to pre mussolini as definitive love at all. 

I think I just communicated with an Owl

 I think I just communicated with an owl who comes by my window every now and then or comes outside in a tree or something. They (there were two I believe) were hooing and so I mimicked their hoo back the same cadence and sequence and they seemed to immediately respond so i did this a few more times then they seemed to move further away, so I don't know if i marked territory or something. I googled to see if humans could communicate with owls and something came up that said if you do the same sounds back in response you'll be communicating with the animal. 

Thoughts on portion of book Sapiens: Civilization does not mean Morality or moral progress.

 In Yuval Noah Harari's book Sapiens he discusses how Civilization's existence hardly means morality or moral progress necessarily. He points to Roman circuses, Aztec human sacrifices etc. And it is true. This is why it is bizarre to me that people today in America take such pride in their history rather than a sober assessment of it. While it's true that atrocities have occurred across different civilizations across time, it doesn't mean that you then ignore or revere your history with blindness and no rational comprehension of its legacy. I find it crazy that people embrace a brand of Republicanism that does exactly that and just worships American history in that manner. But to be sure there's more atrocities being committed across the political spectrum and so its worth taking a sobering look at these things. The term woke is often derided but it was deployed in the 20s I believe by subjects of particular oppression and cruelty and so has been re applied today. But I think being sober and acknowledging atrocious aspects of our civilization is necessary. 

Annie Jacobson's The Pentagon's Brain and Black Widow Marvel movie deal with mind control and Biohybrids

 In December of 2021, The Biden Administration sanctioned 30 Chinese companies for developing or dealing with Brain Control Weapons. This development is an acknowledgement by the highest office in America that brain control is a deployable technology. In Annie Jacobsen's book, The Pentagon's Brain, she discusses many different areas of merging of biology and machine. One term used by DARPA was Biohybrid. In the book she discusses a successful experiment in with a scientist at DARPA steered a lab rat using electric stimulation as part of an effort to create Biohybrids that can help in search and rescue missions as well as other applications. In Marvel's Black Widow movie, starring Scarlett Johanson, the content of the movie deals with Soviet Assassins and super soldiers through mind control and in one scene it touches upon Biohybrids when a pig is being remote controlled in the family home. Scarlett Johanson was also in Ghost in The Shell which deals with a fictional story in which Terrorists hack into people's brains crontrolling them. 

Excerpt about lack of mass cooperation by humans from book Sapiens by Yuval Harari

 In discussing the collapse of world orders or large scale orders throughout history such as Yugoslavia civil war or Roman Empire collapse Harari writes:

"The problem at the root of such calamities is that humans evolved for millions of years in small bands of a few dozen individuals. The handful of millennia separating The Agricultural Revolution from the appearance of cities, kingdoms and empires was not enough time to allow an instinct of mass cooperation to evolve."

I find it an interesting take. If we collectively concentrate and push for the idea of cooperation can we speed up evolution? (if that is an adequate theory of life)