What I'm currently doing with my life

I'm currently working at a snails pace on a book potentially Titled: This is The AFtermath Isn't It or Titled: Fate of The Boogey Man From Gargoyles, Taz and Batman to an Ample Search for Truth in Plato's Cave. It is a musing / analysys as a human rights victim in the United States without any security clearence. It is topically concerned with Technology in Society, Political Surveilance and Psychological Operations. When I finish this or while I finish it I am reading some books and trying to stay healthy. I'm trying to lose weight. I've lost 15 lbs. I want to work again, but everytime I work I'm subjected to reality show nazi plot drivers and pscyhological operations that attempt to drive me insane. I'm not very skilled or marketable at this point my brute strength is waning as I age into 38 so general labor jobs might not go for me. I'd like to be selective at where I work or who I work for. My last job maybe funneled me into a weapons test program tried to drive me insane. Im not very confident these days looking. LIke I can't honestly tell someone to hire me over others. I typically have a good attitude, but I also am jaded and well basically i feel like we are a cold fascist society. I am taking a trip to Scotland probably in spring and after that I will be more likely to be finished with my book and want to work. I am enjoying time with my family and little things. We get to take some trips here and there which is a definite plus. When I do return to work I have certain jobs if I could choose like working for Museums, Journalist orgs, Environmental orgs, Homeless out reach orgs, or Pastry shops. I'll probably be unqualified or think these orgs are not looking for a person like me so I will apply to preferabley a Market or Department Store. There are customer service or call centers that might hire me and I may be capable to do that kind of job as well. I don't want to commute to LA but that is where all the good jobs are. I've nearly died on the freeway 3 different times. Once was an attack or rather a poltical assassination attempt. Also it isn't healthy to commute for hours on the freeway and then work 8 hours. There's no time to tend to your health. I also have however bad this brain damage is and social anxiety due to the weapons experiments.

Just finished watching CNNs Special Report on Havana Syndrome.

I don’t doubt that Russia would use Directed Energy Weapons on US diplomats, but I don’t believe that CNN is ignorant of this technology and that Russia and the US are enemies at this point in history. I also question whether Russia isn't capable of attacking America as part of a unified plan or that America isn’t capable of attacking itself with this technology. What I think is that there’s a unified governance in world that is part of a breakaway civ between elites of China US Russia and that they have integrated AI dew tech bio control system via satellite to repress people world wide. As well as perhaps attack each other's personnel whom they want.

UFC fighting as a sanctioned outlet for aggressive violent people?

When I first saw UFC fighting years ago I thought it was disgusting to see people knocked on the ground in virtually bare hand combat and then being brutalized on the ground. I have since been desenstized somewhat, but I typically go somewhere else or flip the channel when its on. I've come now to believe that the UFC fighting is a way to allow for a controlled outlet of violence in which the fighters are trained, matched and there is medical personal regultations and such sportsmanship tied in. It is better possibly than the alternative, like backyard brawls or street fights. But perhaps i am wrong because there have been more political streetfights like Proud Bouys and Antifa since the advent of UFC popularity. I now fear what is next behind UFC? Hopefully we are satisfied with that. But maybe fifty year old boxers is the new satiation unfortunately.

General social awkwardness and at Reunions as a government experiment.

I skipped out on my middle school reunion. I don't know if I would go to a Reunion. Or at least I don't know what I would do at one. Like what am i going to say "Oh, I'm doing well, I'm a covert mind control experiment and Directed Energy Weapons experiment" Even though i'd want to and I'd be curious to see people and hear about them. But it would just be too awkward to put people on the spot acknowledging reality. It's already like this to some extent even at family reunions and we are blood. Like on my end I have nothing to report except being a government experiment. In fact this is basically the conundrum generally socially as a government experiment.

Originally wanted to go into Journalism in School.

When I went to school orginally to University, my first inclination or choice was to do Journalism, but I decided that it wasn't good for a career and I felt I wouldn't learn enough to be a good journalist. I then decided I wanted to learn more and thought something that could get me into global hospitality was an option and I actually had a job offer for the Wyndham after college so it worked, but I declined and went to work for an Art Museum for kids, which maybe wasn't very smart. But I actually think the Art Museum for kids was good. It really propelled me in other aspects of life besides money and I enjoyed it. Now, I think I don't have a good foot for hospitality anymore because of life circumstances and now if I could choose to do anything with money equal, I would lean towards Journalism, but I don't know if going to school for Journalism (I don't know if i might be able to get into a program) would be a waste of money, because it isn't a very lucrative field. Also, would I be forced to cover bogus stories and create propaganda?

A few Outrageous Things Psychiatric Drugs keep me from being outraged about.

A few things I find outrageous but refrain from outraage due to my medication and apathy: Border patrol running down refugees on horseback whipping them Kidnapping of immigrant children Detention of Immigrants Immigrants as slave labor and second class citizens People being evicted from their homes after shutdown of economy The hundreds of thousands already homeless Texas anti abortion law People being denied medical care because of lack of insurance People being denied medical care because of Covid Police Shootings Government lies and running domestic propaganda campaigns The fact that Nazis embedded in the Gov't and were connected to American Big business and Industrialists now control the Gov't to fanfare point finger everywhere but themselves *actually claim to fight NeoNazis* Gov't acknowledging Directed Energy Weapons attacks for gov't employees, but not for citizens Workplace mobbing running people to financial ruin for political agendas people thinking its ok to sacrifice peoples human rights to score political points the wealth gap and that so few have so much The size of the prison population racist secret societies Cybertorture

Were there more extensive organizational ties between Americans and Nazis than what we're told?

In the book War Against the Weak, Edwin Black points out how “Final Solution” was a terminology used in 1925 to describe eugenics in America to save white supremacy. This would seem to predate NAZI usage. I'm quite sure there is more to the not really often if ever acknowledge historically shared lingo between American EUgenicists in the 1920s and Adolf Hitler usage in 1941 as head of Germany. There is much information about Operation Paperclip in which the narrative is told that America brought NAZI's to the United States after the war, but personally I think the information we have which demonstrates American Industrialists funding the Nazi rise to power in the 20s and 30's indicates that there was likely organizational ties between America and German Nazis and I think it remains to be determined in my mind at least where the organizational center of the Nazi movement was or its true origins. I think that where there is funding from highly politically organized and involved industrialists and wealthy people, that there is likely organization. I don't think it is like a thing where rich people just throw their money without being involved organizationally. So "Final Solution" was a term that predates Hitler's 1941 usage in Germany. Perhaps it is an indicator of organizational ties or that they surfaced in a couple of documented public ways.

Thoughts On Ron DeSantis busing and flying immigrants to Martha's Vineyard.

I think it is Ok to have a conversation about a shared responsibility of absorbing immigrants in the United States, but I think Ron DeSantis used people as pawns when he could have communicated among other government officials and sent people to like Boston or a city with infrastructure and resources to house people with facilities etc. Also, he doesn't really want these people in the country, so it is disingenuous when he says he wants a solution. His solution is elimination or deportation and doing away with santuary laws. I have other thoughts about this issue which I share on this little blog. Link here: https://mylittlepouch.blogspot.com/2022/07/immigration-thoughts-4th-of-july.html

Hive Mind Health Police

So part of the book I'm writing is about political surveillance, technology in society and psychological operations. One thing I've experienced is an 'active surveillance' that seeks to moderate my diet exercise or drinking. It is like a bee hive influencing my health or choices. And I have to begrudgingly admit that the system has probably made me more health conscious and healthier at this moment in my life. But at some point it was influencing me to deplete calories at an excessive levels as well as caused me to sprint everyday and hurt my knees. I still think that if I was left to my own devices it is possible I would have been healthy or healthier. I've been health concsious for a while. I think I would have avoided yoyo spikes by developing consistent habits that were more sustainable and be more confident and social without people trying to control me.

Why I like learning about my DNA maekup

I’m interested in my dna makeup because it tells something basic about my dna memory of land or connections to people, history and past ancestors lives. The Scottish apparently have a Gaelic word for this called dualchas. I have sure ties to Ireland , Italy, Sicily and Scotland and possibly to Greece and Great aBritain. Sliver of Malta Baltic Nigeria. I enjoy learning I have these vairous ties. I've always been able to darken some in the sun so maybe there is something to the Greek and Nigerian DNA. Sicily has Muslim and Arab history to it as well. I don't know much about Malta and Baltic or Nigeria... If it is certain that I am partially connected to these areas I'd like to take a trip there for the mystical energy I could obtain and to learn about the places. Its cool to think a substantial part of me wandered around Greece before if I was there. I've always had a feeling like Athens falling was tragic or that there was knowledge to be learned from Athens. I'd like it if I was British. I flew to London a few times and it felt like I had been there before so the Scottish Roman and potentially British blood maybe was activating. I've felt the same in Ireland as well. I like being Italian as well. I've always wanted to learn Gaelic and Italian. I feel like there's potentially information and knowledge or like hidden passageways into life that I would gain and the past.

Motive for Targeted Individual program to homogenize culture?

In the book Working toward Whiteness by David R. Roediger there is an excerpt in which the author cites the work of a professor named Ellwood Cubberly who wrote a book published in 1909 titled "Changing Conceptions of Education" and this porfessor was discussing issues he saw with "new immigrants" at the time who were largely eastern and southern European. The Author discusses breaking up the new immigrants communities Roediger writes of Cubberly: "Cubberly later drew a policy lesson from these distinctions: "Our task is to break up their groups or settlements, to assimilate and amalgamte these people as a part of our American race and to implant in their children, so far as it can be done, the ANglo-Saxon conception of law and order and popular government." This magic was to be worked on distinct "racial" groups as wekk as inferior ones." So perhaps a social control system which destroys community and family ties is done so that the targeted cry out for Law and Order and elimantes diversity in culture.

On people standing in solidarity with peoples reactions to the death of a head of state citing old resolved conflicts and progressed relations

It's not the same power dynamic, but people offering solidarity for a broad array of reactions which include Irish people celebrating the death of a head of state of Britain in which the head of state exerts very little political control over and you now have friendly relations with that country is a little like Texans and "Remember the Alamo" in order to create alliance among white Americans against latinos. And it is very similar to what The U.S is doing in ukraine or waht is appearently happening in order to fan an alliance against Russians. And like i see some people doing both of this: How do you call for peaceful relations between Ukraine and Russia and then try to fan an old conflict between friendly countries now like Ireland and Britain by celebrating death of a head of state. It is childish stewardship of people. It's one thing to provide history or information regarding legacy, but I don't think as a political organization that claims to be conncerned about peace in one country that you would stand in solidarity with reactions to a head of state's death in another which include celebrations of death. There has been progression and resolution to some of these conflicts and in another like russia with ukraine their is an ongoing appearent invasion. So it doesn't add up in the way of consistent behavior or principled.

Thoughts on the passing of Queen Elizabeth

Rest In Peace queen Elizabeth. I know the monarchy does good deeds that go unseen and I also know they aren’t innocent. But Queen Elizabeth seemed like a good leader for a Monarch. My mom pointed out that Elizabeth shook the hand of an Irish official who may have been responsible for blowing up her uncle for the purposes of reconciliation. An example of positive leadership that can help us avert spiralling out of control conflict. I don’t know much about the royals like I thought prince philip was her brother this whole time. I think it’s fine that a state of England would support a monarchy as head of state figure head. To me it provides credence to an act of humanity in that we could aspire to support all families as one big human family. Monarchies are part of human history and are just one hierarchical organization amongst many. There’s tons of organizations that are worse. In fact that bumper sticker which says "Coexist" kinda has it right. There are ideas and formations humanity follows through its history and many of them are going nowhere unless all civilization explodes, so we have to figure out how to bring everyone to the table and survive and take care of the earth and each other in accordance and in spite of people's beliefs and traditions.

Note on Edwin Black's War Against The Weak. Racial classification and other reasons for sterilization

I'm reading in Edwin Black's book War on The Weak how eugenicists were trying to and actually sorta did craft laws in the United States in the 1920s for sterilization of people who had any amount black or non "pure" white racial blood or who had 'defects' disabilities criminality etc. Like I have 1 percent nigerian DNA according to Ancestry. They would consider me black in some efforts in states and sterilize me. Harry Lauglin who was the head of the Eugenics society wanted to classify white people in dozens of racial classifications for breeding restrictions and sterilization purposes. Like Southern Italians were #26 and Northern Italians were #27 Black Greeks Russian jews and so on. I think these people didn't go away completely but their ideas died in popularity and acceptance. Maybe they evolved some. At the end of the book I believe the author will get into this a little bit. But NAZI Germany actually borrowed from these ideas and policies. I read a quote from a newspaper in which an American Eugenicist said "The Germans are beating us at our own game"

Top NBA players of all time

I'm not one to rank the top players of all time so I picked out positions and put my five best i think it is hard to judge who at their peak was better. Given certain situations and teamates each player would flourish or flounder against the other but here goes 1. Center: Kareem, Olojuwon, Shaq, Chamberlain, David Robinson 2. Power Forward: Duncan, Garnett, Malone, Anthony Davis, Giannis 3. Small Forward: Lebron, Pippen, Kevin Durant, Grant Hill, Nowitski 2. Shooting Gaurd: Jordan, Kobe, Wade, Drexler, Ray Allen 1. Point Gaurd: Isaiah Thomas, Magic, Paul, Curry, Stockton I left out Bill Russel, Dr.J, Charles Barkley, Shawn Marion, Jason Kidd, Larry Bird, Shawn Kemp, Jerry West, Elgin Baylor, Pete Marivich, Allen Iverson. Much ridicule follows the players from the 60s and 70s for their skill level, but they were restricted by officiating and rules that prevented them from developing creativity dribbling and such. Were they around today who knows how they would play and develop. Chances are they would be even better than they show on filmed record from their era. BI didn't know where to put Russel but he could easily be pf or center list. Barkely I just decided wasn't as good as those five though at some point in his career and those five careers he could have beat them. Dr. J could be on there over Nowitski, but Nowitski would probably win by modern play. Kidd could easily beat out Stockton, but stockton is all time assist and steals leader for a reason. I didn't go with Iverson over Drexler, but i could see a case for him. I think I'd go with Clyde though

Is Warfare a cover for Hightech Slushfunding of Secret Space Colonization?

So if we called ufos actually spaceships coming in and out of the atmosphere with technology and at speeds beyond public disclosure. There’s some space faring colonization well beyond Elon musk. There was a CIA agent in the 70s or 80s who theorized that UFOs were time traveling entities. Perhaps that is the case, but with an apparent high technology at play one wonders where do the people operating these get their money? With an apparent disclosure that there was going to be some massive Psyop in Ukraine with fake corpses, explosions, victims and mourners, I ask is it possible to conduct a massive series of these incidents? Also is it possible to have a war where the cabal or leaders of countries don't strike to eliminate each other but target selected military and civilian personnel in each other's organizations, while hiding funds for what people call a "breakaway civilization?" A real war could also serve to that end as well. As the war could showcase lower tech and contribute to the illusion held before the audience, the citizens of countries who are not in the know of what takes place with blackops etc. So are they planning on letting us wither away on earth killing it as wage slaves competing against each other and bombing each other to death over water, land and oil?